I can control my dreams.

and i am not joking. for a few times, i felt like i was in total control of my dreams. i will tell myself, "you are dreaming."


and it's my world from then on.


in my dreams, at least.


sad to say, i am a tyrant in real life yet a failure at controlling my emotions. i am a murderer in my head yet a coward in my skin. i am against people who eat too little and these days, i can't finish my meals. i could have been anything i wanted but i am turning into everything i hate.


T, i am too a walking contradiction.