i am a very nice person.

i say i am a very nice person because i'm feeling bored and would like to feel good about myself.

well it's dempsey hill for the second time round, meeting abel and gillian with gavin. it's been chester, ken, jj, elmo, gavin and i the first time round. i hope joyce comes out with us soon. i really miss hanging out with her.

tmr/the day after it'll be swimming at my country club. gavin needs to tan but not i. i'm really prone to getting dark so i'll have to try to keep out of the sun. i'm actually using lightening cream for my freckles so i wouldn't want to risk it by baking my face under the sun. the day for tanning only comes when i look as white as a fucking ghost. like many girls i know out there.........haha. so obsessed with being fair but still not realising that the key to the beauty of fairness is actually a healthy glow. and most of them are actually WHITE or PALE BEIGE instead of FAIR. no amount of freakin foundation or blusher is going to make you look healthy so sucks for you too, if you have unhealthy looking skin like mine.

i'd recently ran out of daily contacts and i had to go out just now, so i went to the optical shop to get a pair. and because my eyes are such spoilt brats, i had to get the acuvue moist so they wouldn't kick up a fuss and spoil my evening. i put it on, great. everything felt great. feeling perfectly happy with how my eyes were feeling, i paid. but not before i asked the optician how much that pair was.

FUCKING $4.50.

he still can say, "$5. but nevermind la, i charge you $4.50 okay?"

like what fucking difference does it make man. one usual daily pair costs approx $1 i think? not feeling so much of a 'perfectly happy' after that. i wanted to stare (in disbelief) at that uncle but decided to stare at my wallet while i take out a note with a shivering hand. i bet you another $4.50 that if i left my eyes open any much longer my cons would have just popped out there and then. 0.0

so the night was great, had ben & jerry's and did some catching up.

went home to my hungry sister eating pathetically dry instant noodles. told her happily that i had a very pleasant single scoop of ice cream.

then she asked how much.

erm, $4.90?

"FOR ONE SCOOP OF ICE CREAM??" she exclaimed. with 0.0 eyes

i guess spending money on (rather expensive) meals outside have become a norm for gavin and i. and we watch movies while we have nothing to do outside (sometimes 2 at one go). and we also walk over to the market to have fast food for lunch sometimes most of the time.

tsktsk, we need to learn the value of money. it actually took a 13 year old child's disbelieving eyes to teach me that.


psst. abel, have a safe flight on saturday and pray hard aussies won't prey on weak asians like you. you probably won't like wedgies. have fun studying!

bye. :D