Pregnant all over.

i'm sorry i had to blog about this.

i can't get this out of my head: my newly pregnant cousin-in-law is fat. holy cow, she looks bloated all over! i have a tendency to overreact and over think about issues that hasn't even happened. staring at her growing humongous body didn't help. i just thought with a voice screaming in my head, THAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME WTF WTF.

i'm going to be so fat one day during my pregnancy i won't even be able to see my own toes and would have to get my husband to put on my shoes for me. i'm going to have a belly button that protrudes so much i'm going to give it a name. i shall name it peter. or paul. not helping in my self-confidence when it's obvious that my appetite will grow. i'm going to look like fucking jupiter. HALP.

brings back memories of my mom when she was pregnant. she had a 23 inch waist and now she just looks like a freakin' lemon. lost all interest in keeping her hair kempt. she got so fat afterwards, the car would always sink to the left whenever she sits in.

HO MY GOODNESS i think i will cry.