Trouble sleeping.

this is painful.

ever had this feeling where you're tired, but you just can't sleep? the longer you lay in bed, the more awake you feel; your brain refuses to shut itself into nothingness. i tossed and turned, and figured that i should just stay still. maybe i will get bored and drift off to sleep. wrong. as i laid waiting, staring into darkness with my myopic eyes, i thought to myself, "OH GOD. I'M NEVER GOING TO SLEEP, AM I?"

turned on my lamp and started reading again. "maybe," i thought, "i should find something else to do." so i turned on my laptop, signed in to msn and opened a browser. facebooked out of habit. harpreet's online. if i don't sign out, i never will.

signed out. got started on an entry on having problems resting my mind and body. she texted me.

i'm back online. bad decision. now i'm never going to sleep.


maybe only after the birds start chirping.