Right.

i just remembered: i have a blog. I HAVE A BLOG! i have been so immersed in my reading that i didn't really bother writing anything. i might have been so immersed that i could have chewed on those books since they were only three inches away from my face, and i was breathing in every sentence i read. literally. and this has nothing to do with being myopic.

okay well honestly, i'd been really happy without technology. except my ipod. and the television. and my phone. okay cancel the last part, i can actually live WITHOUT my phone! how amazing is that! i'm appalled with myself.

right. so anyway, anyone reading this space here might have figured out that i've recently seen a baby. my cousin's, by the way. just to reinforce the point, NO hakim, i didn't get pregnant and give birth to a baby girl over the last FOUR months we ceased to contact over msn because..that's right, i'm happy without technology.

back to the baby. so here's the thing. after visiting the baby like last sunday, i couldn't get her out of my mind. NOT in a maternal way i assure you, because if i were to get myself preggers right now and give birth to an actual kiddo, my mom will personally make sure i cease and desist. so..babies. to me, they are really tiny and fragile beings who ironically, are capable of destruction with their cries.

only last night i was dreaming that i suddenly had her in my lap, and i was holding her really REALLY gently with my hands. it would have been a wondrous feeling, except for the fact that i was whispering LOUDLY to my mom to GET IT OUT OF MY HANDS. NOW. i know, i deserved to be stoned to death for using 'IT' instead of 'HER'. infamous for being a klutz is something i can't help, and it really scares me to know that a baby's safety lies within my hands. i like looking at babies within a DISTANCE, but i'm not really comfortable with touching a newborn, much less holding it. the other time elphelia's mitten came off, i was told to put it back on for her. CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE MY FEAR? there she was, small and breakable, and they would actually risk ME breaking her wrist AND fingers just to put on her mittens!? how dare they risk the severity of a broken wrist for an insignificant mitten! pfft, they should have known better.

enough ranting. i should go clean my room now. guests were unwelcomed because there was actually no space at all to SIT in my room, BECAUSE every seat is occupied by a heap full of laundry, bags and cushions. also, it would have been an impossible feat to walk into my room because you would have to waddle through hair and dust two inches thick BECAUSE i am balding. in the front. on my head, you wayward brains. i would have tried using a vacuum cleaner, but c'est la vie, it will cease and desist on me, like me with my mom if i still fail to clean this kennel of mine.