To understand

i have typed a substantial amount into this little box for this entry, little characters that form words and sentences which expresses how i feel. but just as little pixels are appearing on this screen, they are also backspaced away just as quickly. words in times like this serves no other purpose--only to hurt, and hurt further when we read back on the archives.

there is nothing more you can say to a friend who has an irresolute mind. no matter what is said, what input has been given, the fucking outcome will always be the same. note that i'm not disappointed by the outcome--i am only STILL disappointed by your wavering will. and also, the way you view my perspective on this issue.

this will be the very last time something like that has to happen. i will still be your friend, i can still listen. but i very much do not wish to communicate with either of you about your relationship anymore. first of all, it is none of my concern. secondly, you will not listen. thirdly, there is no point giving substantial advices when in the end, it only merely seems like i've been trying to destruct your unyielding relationship. this will continue no matter how many years you wish to go on with him.

"you sound mad that i didn't break up with him" is NOT cool, people. never say that to a friend who has cried and laughed with you through happy and sad times, and only has your best interests at heart.

so. from now onwards, your business is your own.