It's been too long since I've written in this space.

i used to fill this space up with so many words, so many thoughts, so much feelings.

a few times i've come back here, only to type a few words, backspace a little, then eventually closing the page. i find it hard to pen down my thoughts when i'm happy. i turn to facebook, i turn to tumblr, because that's where i see colours from pictures that evoke old happy feelings from memories that are seemingly fresh..and vivid. (http://theadventuresofabby.tumblr.com/ hahahahaha marketing)

i also blame twitter. damn you, all 140 characters.

i blame it on technology because it allows me to update my thoughts real time, any time, any where. it's also ironic how i used to blame the new age for having blogs--we never write in those little diaries anymore. this is also where i blame technology for my bad handwriting.

the reason why i'm here at this late hour (time check: 5:55 am) is because...oh crap i forgot. but this is me now, i never stay focused on anything too serious for too long. this is also why i'm happy.

Happy is such a commonly overused, and abused word. i am happy, euphoric, and feeling out of this world. but i like the word Happy. i am therefore, happy.

i love facebook. i am always on facebook. i scroll through photos, updates, of everything, of everyone. ironically, i do not make friends on facebook. which kind of defeats the purpose, since it's a social networking site, right? but i have my social network--only not that big, and i'm happy with it. some people say facebook causes break ups. to that, i say "fast foods causes obesity, spoons make you choke and water drowns you."

it's all about learning to make the right decisions, no matter where you're at. i have made pretty bad decisions in my life, but that's how i learn to make better ones. we don't all need a scapegoat for our seven sins.

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it's 6:13 am, and yet i still can't sleep. not the slightest hint of weariness. i've been told over and over, by everyone that my body clock is screwed. but really, all i did was travel into the past and the future (uncool reference: different GMT time zones). give me time, and i will sleep when that time comes.

sometimes though, i do feel like i run on batteries. it's not good for my body, but i also get so much down time it's not even funny. right now, i am on friggin' leave for eleven days. E-L-E-V-E-N. but it's all good, because i love it when it's just me and my music.

"Solitude is blessed, and alone is okay."

good morning, world.